I struggle to write this experience. I struggle not because
I have any doubt about what happened, but because it left me with so many
unanswered questions. Reflecting back on it, it did serve to clarify one belief
that I have held ever since I can remember and one that is at the core of what
my church teaches. The belief that I am talking about is the belief that there
is life after death.
First let me give you some background. The year was 1963. I
was 17 years old. We lived in a house on VanOwen Street in Canoga Park,
California. Prior to exact date of the experience some pretty strange things
had been happening in that house.
At first, all we heard was a rustling noise late at night as
if someone was walking between Peggy and Wendy’s room and mine. Peggy and Wendy
shared a large room in a section of the house which was clearly an add on. (It
was probably originally a den). My room was a small room next to theirs.
Clothing seemed to be rustling against the heater which stood at the end of
their room right next to mine. I also heard something that sounded like someone
looking through the trash can in my room. There was a wasp’s next in the
ceiling of my room near the window and the wasps would become agitated at night
and swarm, sometimes stinging me if I moved in my sleep. Wendy said that she
had seen someone standing in front of their dresser looking in the mirror. She
described her as having long black hair and a long flowing dress. Wendy thought
that she was primping in the mirror, but when she looked into the mirror, Wendy
could not see the reflection of the woman in it. Peggy and Wendy reported
strange noises. They said it sounded like someone was walking around in their
room and then going into my room.
On the night of March 23rd, I was just about to
fall asleep when I again heard the rustling noises. Suddenly the atmosphere of
the room changed. The room grew cold and I felt an overwhelming feeling that
someone was standing by my bed. This feeling filled me with terror. I couldn’t
open my eyes, but the feeling persisted. I then I heard an ethereal voice say “June”
softly. I still couldn’t open my eyes. I felt the presence stronger and again
was filled with dread. I thought, Maybe if I pretend to be asleep, it will go
away. The voice said “June” again, a little louder. I still keep my eyes closed
and felt the presence stronger. “June” it said again, louder still. I still
wouldn’t open my eyes. Finally, I felt the presence leave. It was a long time
before I could fall asleep again.
I don’t know why I was so afraid. The ghost that we had been
having experiences with didn’t seem to be malevolent, she even seemed playful
and had not tried to contact us in anyway. This seemed different, however.
Although the presence I felt didn’t seem to be dark, it was strong and I still
resisted contact with it.
The next morning my Mom was fixing my hair when the phone
rang. She went to answer it. I heard her talking, but not what she was saying.
When she got off the phone and came back into the room and just as she was
about to open her mouth to tell us what the phone call was about, I blurted out
“Gram died”. (Gram is what we called my maternal great-grandmother). Mom said, “How
did you know?” I couldn’t tell her because I didn’t really know, but I did tell
her about the visit I had the night before. We speculated that it may have been
Gram trying to tell me something or that the ghost was trying to give me a
message. Somehow, however, I seemed to have gotten the message that Gram had died.
Why didn’t I open my eyes, why didn’t I look? Now I’ll never
know who was trying to contact me and if they had more to tell me. After that
night, we never heard from our ghostly visitor again!
One thing that this experience clarified for me without a
shadow of a doubt was that there is life after death and that we exist as
spirits (ghosts).
It’s hard to try and explain to anyone who hasn’t had any
experience with spirits or ghosts how you can believe in them but if you have
had an experience you can’t deny it.
It reminds me of what Joseph Smith said about his first
vision “…I knew it, and I knew that God knew it, and I could not deny it…(Pearl
of Great Price, Joseph Smith History, Chapter 1 Verse 25).
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